Întrebare: După ani de sadhana, încă simt că s-ar putea să nu ajung nicăieri. Ce să fac?

Sadhguru: Nu contează câți ani de sadhana faci, nu vei ajunge nicăieri. Nu că s-ar putea să nu ajungi, ci pur și simplu nu vei ajunge. Pentru că ideea de a face sadhana nu este de a merge undeva. Ideea de a face sadhana este să ajungi într-o stare în care poți pur și simplu să fii aici – să înțelegi și să știi că ceea ce este aici este pretutindeni, iar ceea ce nu este aici nu este nicăieri. Să treci dincolo de nevoia de a ajunge undeva – aceasta este sadhana, pentru că, de fapt, nu ai unde să te duci. Există doar aici, și există doar acum. Restul este doar în mintea ta. Sadhana este menită să te aducă într-o stare în care, cel puțin pentru o anumită perioadă în cursul zilei, simplul fapt de a sta așezat este suficient. Dacă trăiești, ești aici și acum; dacă mori, ești tot aici și acum. Nu poți merge nicăieri. Nu există niciun loc în care să mergi. 

Sadhana este un dispozitiv 

Sadhana este un dispozitiv. Este o metodă de a te aduce la un anumit nivel de maturitate în care nevoia de a merge undeva dispare. De aceea, oamenii care sunt profund cufundați în sadhana nu se deplasează nicăieri. Dacă ai călători în jurul lumii, tot nu ai ști dacă lumea este rotundă sau plată, darămite să cunoști complexitățile vieții. Însă, dacă ești cu adevărat aici, tot ceea ce merită cunoscut este chiar aici, pentru că nu poți percepe nimic în exterior. Nu contează dacă stai aici sau în Himalaya sau în Africa sau în Statele Unite sau la Polul Sud sau la Polul Nord. Poate că anumite atmosfere sunt favorabile, anumite atmosfere nu sunt favorabile – asta este o altă chestiune – dar, în esență, poți avea doar experiența a ceea ce se întâmplă în interiorul tău. 

So, wherever you go, only this is there. You know, these mountains here are called Velliangiri. That means “White Mountain.” You can make them the Himalayas - that is what it means. We also call them “Kailash of the South.” If you sit here long enough or involved enough, they will become the Kailash; you don't need to make the journey. You can only experience what happens within you. You cannot experience what happens in the mountain, you cannot experience what happens in the sky, you cannot experience what happens anywhere.

You can sit here, look at someone, and experience love. You can close your eyes, just think about someone, and experience love, isn’t it? You can either stimulate it from outside or simulate it from inside, both are possible. Either you are on “push-start” or “self-start.” Either you are a current machine or a past machine. You look at the moon, you look at the earth, you close your eyes, you open your eyes – still what is happening within you is all that is happening to you – nothing more, nothing less.

Sadhana is to bring yourself to that level of maturity to simply see, it does not matter what you do, it does not matter whether you climb a peak or sit in the valley, it does not matter if you are successful or not in the world, it does not matter if you are well-known or not, it does not matter if you are eating whatever you dream of or not, it is just the way you experience it. This is not a trap, that is the beauty of life. There is really nowhere to go. You can sit here and be blissful, ecstatic; you can sit here and be miserable. You have a whole range of choice. You can sit here and think, “This is the most blessed moment in my life.” You can sit here and think, “This is the most torturous moment in my life.” Life has not put any bondage upon you. Bondage is all your making. Existence has left you free, absolutely free. You can sit here and that's it. Nothing needs to happen, and yet you can go through life in a most wondrous way because of what you do within yourself. Or you can go all over the place and do all kinds of things, and still go through life in an utterly miserable way. Both are your making.

Getting rid of the itch

Sadhana is that blessed process through which you realize this, that there is nowhere to go. When the need to go stops, your sadhana is successful. Then you just sit. Sitting need not necessarily mean you are physically sitting in one place. It is just that the itch to go into this and that is gone. If you sit, you are fine, if you run, you are fine, if you fly, you are fine, if you walk also you are fine. Wherever you are, you are just fine. Once the itch is gone, you are at ease. Once you are at ease, you don’t have to do anything. Just a little bit of waiting, that’s all. Only if you are in love, you can wait, because when you are in love with somebody, you are feeling emotionally pleasant. Love creates a lot of mental anxiety because that is your idea of concern. So your mind is getting unpleasant, but your emotion is pleasant – and still it is worthwhile.

If you are irritated, agitated, frustrated or angry, you cannot wait because you are unpleasant. Depending upon the type of karmic substance you carry and the kind of active and dynamic help that you get from outside, the period of waiting may alter. It may be a few moments, a few years… just sitting and waiting. When your insides are pleasant, waiting for a few years is not a big deal. You just wait.

Editor’s Note: Excerpted from Sadhguru’s discourse at the Isha Hatha Yoga School’s 21-week Hatha Yoga Teacher Training program. The program offers an unparalleled opportunity to acquire a profound understanding of the yogic system and the proficiency to teach Hatha Yoga. The next 21-week session begins on July 16 to Dec 11, 2019. For more information, visit www.ishahathayoga.com or mail info@ishahatayoga.com