Why You Can’t Do Consciousness
Consciousness happens not because you are doing something, but simply because you have allowed it. Life is happening to you, but it is not your doing. What we are calling consciousness is the basis of your life and your existence. It is not something that you can do or not do at a particular time. Consciousness is still on whether you are in this body or you are disembodied. The question is only, is it available to you or not? You are always available to consciousness - you cannot escape that - but is it available to you?
Consciousness always has a say in your life. Whether you have access to it is the question. The reason why you are avoiding this access is because if you access it, you will vanish - you will not exist. You will neither have pride nor shame, pain nor pleasure, but you can do everything that you wish to do. See, I am doing everything that I want to do, but nothing really. You will have no accomplishments in your life, and you will not be any better or worse than anybody within yourself. You neither go up nor down, but you can do whatever you want. You can make this life experience whichever way you want.
The Freedom to Make Anything Out of Life
If I want, right now in a few seconds I can make myself utterly miserable, in grief and with tears, or I can make myself ecstatic, but with both I know it is my doing. None of the so-called things that you call the game of life are there, but freedom is there. You can make anything out of it. If freedom is your highest goal, you must move towards becoming a state of abandon, simply. This does not mean you abandon your responsibility. That is the first thing that people want to abandon, because they want to abandon all those things that are inconvenient to them - their family and everything else. But they do not abandon their own ideas, opinions, philosophies and egoistic approach to life.
Abandon does not mean abandoning this or that - you abandon yourself. Everything else you hold precious, except yourself. If you do that, life is not good, nor is it bad. It is neither beautiful nor ugly – it is something that you cannot name. It is not the way people know life. It is just that, if you are done with kindergarten, then it is time to move to the next step.
A version of this article was originally published in Forest Flower, October 2018.